Early morning thoughts

I have been having a bit of difficulty lately getting a good rest. I have been off work for a couple of days and I just can't rest when I do that. I think it is because I can't do anything fun when I'm off because I have so much to do with school and all. But I was thinking...a person real begins to focus on something when he enjoys it. I have had a lot of hobbies that I used to enjoy but with all the stuff I have going on, I find that I put off what needs to be done while I search for that moment of fun. The problem with that is that when I spend most of my time grasping at moments of fun, I miss finishing project until the last minute and that robs me of my fun. So, here's the solution: I need to realize that the things that I have filled my life up with are really things I enjoy. This is not to try to convince myself of that, it is the truth. I really like going to school and I really like my job and my church. So why don't I put the joy effort into them like I want? Because I forgot my joy. King David wrote, "Create within me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me." Psalm 51:10 (ESV). This is about God removing the sin from David's life and making his heart pure again. Maybe that is part of the problem. We let our hearts get full of junk and when we try to put the stuff in there that we love doing, it seems to be pushed out. I don't think all the stuff we fill our time with is bad but sometimes maybe it is too much. Simply too much. I am going to pray about this and I will let you know what happens.